I love people too much, that sometimes i'd give anything even—if it hurts me—to them.

But nowadays i'm starting to realize that it's not worth it.

They'll never love me back as much, they'll never give up something or sacrifice themselves for me. I feel like even if i'd take a bullet to save them, they won't even reach their hands out if i'm drowning. And that's okay— they actually don't have to.

I trust people with all of my heart, but they always let me down. It's like they're here with me ONLY if they need something for me. AND THAT'S OKAY. I mean, if it doesn't give you any profit, what would you do staying beside me, right?

The problem is i also need to start thinking that way. I need to prioritize myself over anyone else.




I'm starting to have trust issues, and now i can never look at people in a positive light again, just because i've been broken too much. I mean, it's true though. Why would anyone love this piece of shit? This useless, blob of crap will never be anything except a hassle to people. So why would people want me around?

It's hard to love myself when people around me doesn't even make me feel loved.

That's it. That's my rant. Good night, people.