this quarantine period sucks. like, real bad.
i get few minor anxiety attacks everyday, and at times it feels like i can't breath and it just hurts to get some air into my lungs. my body & mind needs to slow down yet i can't seem to do it.
i ended up getting sick easily, and when i get sick it takes weeks to recover, and few days after my recovery... bam. i get sick. again. I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW IT HAPPENS. ok maybe i can blame my poor sleeping schedule & bad eating habits, but i'm like that everyday and it's never affected me before. my doctor & friends say maybe i'm mentally exhausted, and honestly at this point maybe that's the reason but i just can't accept it. i prefer to think that i'm mentally fine, i'm ok, but now... maybe i just gotta admit it. that my state is actually really bad.
and it's FUCKING TIRING to pretend that everything's ok in front of my family too. i just don't want them to overthink that something's happened to me but i also can't tell them what's up bcs i don't even know what is up with me. so i just gotta fake it everyday.
tl;dr, here's the summary: quarantine has gotten onto me, and i need to get some help before i turn real batshit crazy. <3
i get few minor anxiety attacks everyday, and at times it feels like i can't breath and it just hurts to get some air into my lungs. my body & mind needs to slow down yet i can't seem to do it.
i ended up getting sick easily, and when i get sick it takes weeks to recover, and few days after my recovery... bam. i get sick. again. I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW IT HAPPENS. ok maybe i can blame my poor sleeping schedule & bad eating habits, but i'm like that everyday and it's never affected me before. my doctor & friends say maybe i'm mentally exhausted, and honestly at this point maybe that's the reason but i just can't accept it. i prefer to think that i'm mentally fine, i'm ok, but now... maybe i just gotta admit it. that my state is actually really bad.
and it's FUCKING TIRING to pretend that everything's ok in front of my family too. i just don't want them to overthink that something's happened to me but i also can't tell them what's up bcs i don't even know what is up with me. so i just gotta fake it everyday.
tl;dr, here's the summary: quarantine has gotten onto me, and i need to get some help before i turn real batshit crazy. <3
