the thing that i've realized since the first time meeting you is that i can never get enough of you. 

i can't get enough of your time, your touches, your smile, your laugh, your dry ass jokes. from the beginning. even though i thought it was just some kind of casual thing, the feeling didn't go away, i still feel it until now,

you are truly my person.

that's what i felt the entire time i spent with you. you're intoxicating, just like that, i seemed to never be able to let you go in every end of our journeys.

so when it's time to finally really let you go, i still have a hard time to do it.

i became too dependent of you, even though i always say that i'll be able to live my life without you. such bullshit thing to say, when i'm here choking on my tears and feeling heartbroken every second you're not here with me.

and i hate that.

i don't even remember how my life was like before you. you became such a huge part of my life and when you're gone, it's like you're taking a part of me and i can't function properly.

i still miss you,

and i still love you.