jujur aja gue takut'-')?

"if two past lovers can remain friends, it's either they never in love, or they still are."

apaan sih gue gajelas WKWKWK 
gue lagi in doubt #halah. bodo

"Moving on isn't about not loving someone anymore and forgetting them. It's about having the strength to say I still love you, but you're not worth this pain."

yarrapun galau bung....
oke gue serius.
i'm soooooooooooooooo frickin' confused right now because

Throughout the lies, those long arguments, the pain you caused me. deep inside i know i still love you, and no matter how much i try to hate you. i can't. it makes me love you more... and it hurts. so much.

ya.
gue gangerti kenapa sebanyak apapun dia bikin gue sakit, gue sering mikir kalo mungkin suatu hari dia bakal balik, dan gue harus siap disitu, nggak terlambat untuk nahan dia. walaupun sakit, gue akan tahan.
i did ALL the things with the guide by my heart. it's wrong. i know i had to follow my brain.
gue udah tau itu. tapi gue tetep....

so many of my friends dropped this at me: If you feel the need to insult your ex or their new lover, you obviously still have feelings for them. mereka benar.

gue gabisa nahan rasa jealous gue setiap liat orang lain deket dia, ngobrol sama dia, ketawa sama dia... kenapa ya? padahal dua tahun lalu gue ngerasa gue udah moved on dari dia ke orang yang salah juga. 
gue bener bener speechless tentang gimana perasaan gue.. gue bahkan nggak tahu kenapa gue masih sayang sama dia padahal tau kalau dia udah potekin hati gue seratus kali, tapi, gue masih sayang banget dengan harapan dia bakal cepet sadar betapa gue beneran sayang dia. heumm rumit

masalah takut itu.............









gue takut gue jatuh cinta lagi sama dia.