maybe some of my same-age peers would feel the same, but currently i'm kinda in a weird phase right now. where i have no freaking clue about what i want, what my plan is, etc.

everyday is a cycle that's just sooo boring and repetitive, and the only thing that makes me happy is hugging my mom and hearing her stories. never expected my life would become this painfully no-jam thing that drains my energy.

i think i'm... growing up.

i'm starting to outgrow things, places and people that i've loved so dearly and held on so tight in the past. it's becoming easy for me to just let go? that feels weird because i'm used to trying to hold onto all of my loved ones & things. i became more accepting about the fact that everything's changing around me, and even though it sucks, i'm accepting. i also started to give less fucks about anything at all and it's.. scary. because i used to really care. but now i'm just tired, and exhausted, and all i want is a hug and 14 years worth of sleep.